Just an illusion

Written on March 30th 2011

It still makes me disappointed

When spoken words were all just lies

Can you imagine what kind of sickness that you made

Where love is once the biggest part

When there was joy in every beat, every single breath

Why do i have to cry?

Can you realized it, It hurts me so deep,

When I remind everything about YOU

Your smile, your laugh, your hugs, It seems unmeaning for you, Isn't it ?

How foolish am I. You must have been just an illusion.

I dream the dreams like lovers do.

I get down on my knees just to wish that you're for me.

That YOU are the one, what I spelled just your name !

What I had wait just you, you, and you !!

I don't know what happened with you, you just gave me many signals to reach you

How could I allow it.

I like you more than ever, can you see it from my eyes. You blame me.

Feeling empty, hopeless, lonely, guarded, and wondering WHY ?

Why you hurt me. Now there's no difference between my teardrops and the rain. It's all because of you !

I have love you and all that remains is my broken heart.

It's days like these when it's difficult to allow myself out of window and force myself to face the real world, for the real world is a scary place to be standing in alone. Without You anymore, without my laugh about you, not at all.

Trying to display a smile, trying to have hope that it will all come together. But honestly, with each passing day, the hope I have lessens ..

This Note is dedicated for a Boy that made me laugh in every second, ours : Fridaynight, March 25th 2011 @haunted house festival, Babarsari.